On my 21st birthday, I vowed to myself that I wouldn’t go another year without finding a girlfriend. Alas, I’m 26 years old this year and still, no girlfriend. It’s hard to really fathom that 5 years went by since I made this oath to myself, but the calendar rarely lies. I also promised myself I wouldn’t be living with my Mom past 23, but that promise has seemingly taken a backseat to the many other lofty ideas I have that I’m yet to follow through with. I guess I’m just way to comfortable. I’m so used to my mom picking out my outfits, cutting my hair & even making me delicious snacks everyday, that maybe subconsciously I never really wanted to leave in the first place. And I wonder why I don’t have a girlfriend yet!! What really holds me back however, is when I go to sleep knowing I haven’t reached my goals, yet I just repeat the phrase “I’ll do it Tomorrow.”

This phrase is only beneficial to me if I actually “Do it Tomorrow”, but most of the time it just ends up becoming an excuse to procrastinate. As far as getting a girlfriend goes, I have been telling myself ” I’ll do it Tomorrow” for my whole life. Tomorrow just hasn’t seem to come yet. I mean, it’s not like I haven’t tried throughout the years, but my biggest setback has got to be procrastination. Like that time I was going to ask Jenny C to go to the premiere of “Star Wars- Episode 1- The Phantom Menace” with me, and she ended up going with Stuart Philbrick instead because I waited till the last minute to muster up the courage. {And to think, Stuey got his first hand-job during that flick.} Or the time when the hottest girl in class, Nadia, broke up with her boyfriend for that month, and kept asking me to come over and “study” with that sultry wink in her eye. I kept making up silly excuses because I was scared I wouldn’t perform as well as “Jared” did in bed, or that I didn’t have as big of a penis as he did. Then, on Valentines day, when I was finally ready to make my move, “Jared” got her all those flowers and gifts, and Nadia went crawling back to him and continued to treat me like I was invisible again. Siiigh….

I have a feeling if that If keep procrastinating with women nowadays, it can really affect my well being. Although I have always tried to stay positive, lately it’s been almost impossible to even get out of bed in the morning {or late afternoon for that matter}. All the things that give me joy in life have started to lose their meaning all together, and I find myself spending countless hours in front of the T.V. and computer screen just wasting away. Although I thought the past few dates I had been on were quite romantic, apparently they just made things really awkward between us because those girls just wanted to be “friends.” I realize now that I can’t let my loneliness hold me back from living life, so I’ve decided from here on out that I will no longer use the motto, “I’ll just do it Tomorrow”, I’ll just be, “Doing it Today.” Time wait’s for no one, so the longer I just “wait” for time to bring me what I want, the longer it will take. Today’s the Day! Wish me luck.

Photo By: Charis Kirchheimer